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hey there.. ":( :)"
i relly dont know what my mood is now a days... im just confused in soo many things, theres lots of ups and downs dont you thnk?

its just like when times are like soo right, in a moment, everything just turns its way.. from good to bad.. or just like when a friend comes close to me, the other goes away.. im gaining then losing.. but just when i tot its like this.. like when it'll just stay like this, in a moment, it turns back to its original form.. is this what they call "LIFE" ??

there has been lots going on in my life.. both in family and friends.. my family is just totally waked up!! i feel that when im at home, and when that ONE MEMBER of the FAMILY is also at home, i dont feel like im at home.. i feel like im in prison.. i cant do what i want to do.. its my HOME! but i always have to be careful for what im doing and what my other family members do.. cause with one thing that we do wrong in the way we talk or do.. that "PERSON" tends to go srsly MAD!! ".."'ll even throw things around until it goes to shatters and do physical things to all of us... its totally crazy!!! that so called "FAMILY MEMBER" is the one who should protect us from those "BAD" ppl.. and also help us and always be with us when we need help from danger or shit like that.. but how the hell can that "PERSON" do that when "..."'s THE FUCKING ONE WHO IS ATTACKING US?!?!?! home is suppose to be like peace right? well, i do feel that but we still have to be careful and ACT HAPPY AND ACT INNOCENT AND ACT FOR EVERYTHINGG!!!! its totally not normal is it? ohh and also that there's is another family member that is not close to me but is the one that is controlling that "PERSON".. and SHE IS LITERALLY A FUCKING DEVIL!!! LITERALLY!!! =_=

yupp indeed lots of things have been going on in my life.. im living a normal boring stupid life but thats all in the picture.. behind it all.. a mystery that has been hidden for many years... and i havent even started on my other problems =_=